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Refraction is the bending of light as the density of the material that it passes through changes. This phenomenon is the pre-requisite in certain experiences. If you do not get anything, but I clearly give something then what is the point of the act?
Transactions cannot be rituals.
If transactions are rituals then they might as well not take place. Transactions are not rituals.
Layers of our experience as well as our own psyche rely on the actualisation of certain transactions. If something happens, you witness it happening, but no refraction is actually experienced then nothing has happened for you. Experience cannot be parsed after the fact of the unraveling of the present. There is loss involved in experience. We do not know everything that is happening. We only know a specific range of it.
Refraction is not entirely a rational process. In terms of experience we do not need to know why it occurs. For our purposes it is sufficient to know that it has occurred. Subsequently we only need to acknowledge the situation that we are in after the refraction has occurred. At a subtle level, the nature of our being gets altered. This not the high point of the potential of experience. This is our minimum expectation. If we do not get moved, nothing has happened.
Movement is not a sign of progress. By itself it does not signify either an advancement or any other kind of positive phenomenon. Refraction has an equal potential of being uplifting as well as pulling us down.
We do not care about the qualities that transpire through refraction. We only care about being left cold, about not being touched, about not being moved. And it is not trivial to be mundane. There is no neutral surface that we know of. A seemingly mundane surface is only locked in an internal conflict of some kind. This conflict is only a symptom of either a hesitation or an inability to offer a perspective. Offering a perspective is the most basic function that we can perform. If we withdraw all the aspects of our artifice, we are left with our transparent form. We cannot afford to be transparent with anyone. Not even to our own self. We have to enact our own transparency to really be anything close to being transparent.
Refraction is the quality of our enactment of our own transparency.
We want to bite our own tail. For us to be able to do that, we must first locate our tails. This is not always easy.